Holland granny wants to date

No one knows my big secret: I've been good friends with a married man for years. He always held me accountable; I was far too gullible. I've learned from this; I won't make that mistake again. I definitely want to find a man, but he needs to be someone who puts me first; I won't settle for anything less.

Maybe not the most beautiful anymore, but still exciting in bed. There's still some honor to be gained there. Of course, I don't expect you to look like a young god anymore. But I assume you can still perform, and that's enough for me to make it something enjoyable.

I often hear that I look much younger than I am, which is always nice to hear, of course. Maybe I'll even have a chance to meet a much younger man. I certainly don't like stiff guys.

I do have "single" listed on my profile, but it's a bit different. My husband has dementia and has been in a nursing home for years. Things have gotten to the point where he doesn't recognize me or the children anymore. I visit him every week; it's a real ordeal to see your own husband deteriorate like that. I don't have a married life anymore; what I'm looking for is a man who can accept that I'm still married on paper. I can't bring myself to get a divorce; it feels like a stab in the back for my husband.