Dutch mature wants a man

I love to sing, preferably in the shower, because I'm afraid you won't like listening to it, haha. But if there's one thing I hate, it's leaving the church before the singing, and you?

I sometimes wonder if I shouldn't have chosen a younger man. My partner is 20 years older than me; he's already lost all his zest for life, while I'm still full of it. I feel like I'm sitting on the fence; I'm looking for someone who will help me out.

I've already been through a lot, which is why I'm here looking for a fresh start with someone special to share the rest of my life with. It sounds too good to be true, but I'm just going for it.

It's really time for me to look for something new. My life isn't exactly spectacular, and neither is my marriage. Why sit in a corner and mourn what happened? I'd rather take the bull by the horns and find the thrill myself. The thrill I want is hot sex in a car somewhere.