Lonely granny wants to date

I don't have much experience with online dating yet. It's not really my generation's thing. But I am very curious. Nothing ventured, nothing gained.

In my married life, I simply worked way too much. The only thing that mattered to me was my work. Very stupid, of course, because my husband left because I neglected it. And he was absolutely right. Unfortunately, he didn't want to try anymore, but I've learned my lesson. I'm looking for a new man, and I promise I'll give you all my free time.

My husband didn't agree with my suggestion to bring in a man. Simply because he's not gay or bisexual. He did admit he'd find it exciting to watch me do it with another man. I think that's absolutely fantastic, so I'm up for it. Are you up for it too?

If I'm being completely honest, my boyfriend doesn't want to have sex with me anymore because I'm chubby. I'm always horny and can satisfy him. I even caught him cheating. Why do I still have to be the good housewife and not be allowed to have sex with another man?