Holland granny wants to date

No one knows my big secret: I've been good friends with a married man for years. He always held me accountable; I was far too gullible. I've learned from this; I won't make that mistake again. I definitely want to find a man, but he needs to be someone who puts me first; I won't settle for anything less.

After a divorce and a failed relationship, I'm just going to try again. I'm not a quitter by nature, and perseverance wins, right?

It would be so nice to just date, have sex together, and have no obligations. I'm not looking for amateurs, but for men who know what to do with a woman like me.

It's strange, I never wanted a relationship because I was afraid of losing my partner to something. Dying, cheating, you name it. I see so much pain in others, I didn't want that. But suddenly I realized I'm alone now, and that's also very lonely. It would have been better if I had known true love, don't you think?