Holland mature wants a man

Being single certainly has its advantages, but after a long time, I only see disadvantages. The house is always empty when I get home, and with my approaching retirement, I'm starting to think about that.

Is it pathetic if you try to get off online? Well, if that's the case, I'm just pathetic. I'm sure there are more people who hate it if I try like that, and if those men respond to me, everything will be fine!

Besides sex with my own husband, I'm looking for sex with someone else. My husband finds it hot to watch, but if you'd rather not, we won't. I'm into extreme sex myself; I don't know the boundaries.

Because I was always there for my mother, I never had time for myself. My mother was single and seriously ill, and I was her caregiver until her death. After her death, I fell into a deep hole, but thankfully, with professional help, I managed to escape. I have a positive outlook on life again, can laugh again, and can enjoy life again.