Old grandmother wants sexdating

My husband and I used to live quite unhealthy lives. Since his passing, I've taken the step to completely change course and focus solely on sports. Right now, I'm realizing that being alone is truly alone, and I'm looking for a buddy to help me enjoy life again every now and then.

I'm certainly unique as a person, but perhaps everyone is. I'm always cheerful and get up on the right foot, and I'd love to find a companion like that in my life.

Is that even possible? Flirting with a man my age? I always feel so awkward when I go somewhere and try to get a man's attention. I think: "Old woman, don't be so stupid!" But you hear it often, though, that people find new love later in life. And I'd really like that too. Maybe here?

It's strange to be looking for sex when you have a boyfriend. Unfortunately, my boyfriend is often away from home because he's in the military and frequently deployed. I'm looking for a regular sex buddy to hang out with during that time. I'm looking for a sex buddy who isn't into rough and rough sex. I'm more of a romantic person.